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Thursday, April 30, 2015

Prayer and G-d

Praying for Ourselves and our Friends

Prayer. What is it? How does it work? Does it work?

This is a complicated topic. I am sharing a few things which I recently heard. I asked several psychics about what happens when we pray for ourselves and our friends. Who are we praying to? Is there a personal G-d who answers prayers?

Traditionally, we ask G-d for what we want and He either says "yes" and grants our wish, or He says "no." Today, we are considering a different perspective on prayer and G-d. This suggestion is based on the idea that we live in an interactive, energetic universe.

Praying for our self

According to the psychics, when we pray for something for our self, we are asking for the energy to align our self with what we want. One theory is that we are praying to our Higher Self to bring us into alignment with our goal. Our Higher Self knows what we are here to do and experience, and can determine if what we are asking for is in our highest and best interest. Prayers help align our consciousness with whatever we are attempting to manifest. We bring energy into balance to manifest the desire.

I asked if there was a G-d who answers personal prayers. There were two parts to this answer:

1) In general, there is a Universal Source of Energy and Intelligence which supports (and permeates) everything. This is not a personal G-d which is involved in daily lives. That task is delegated to our Higher Self (an aspect of our self which is connected to Source).

2) On the other hand, people are creators. Over the centuries, enough people in enough religions have prayed to a singular, personal G-d that those prayers have created such an entity. If people believe in a personal G-d, and give that G-d the opportunity to answer their prayers, that system can exist. It exists because people believe it exists.

In times of trouble, in times of fear, and in times of joyous jubilation, prayer energy has been gifted into the thought form of G-d. Millions of people believe that there is a G-d who answers prayers. As that energy is sent out, it brings the entity named "G-d" into existence. It maintains, or holds, the energy that people have given it. Different people's diverse views on what G-d is, make G-d a very expansive being.

When people send out energy in prayer, when people send out the energy of the spoken word, when they send out the energy in millions of religious services around the world, that energy builds up and creates a personal G-d. I think of this personal G-d, as a subset of the more-universal "Source."

Those who pray to G-d often receive what they ask for. They receive it from that which they pray to, for it's all energy by any name, in an interactive universe.

When someone sees G-d as a personal G-d, that truth vibrates back to them from the etheric level, and their prayers can be answered.

When someone see G-d as a Source, as a Creative Energy, and aligns their energy with Source, their prayers can also be answered.

However, whether people are dealing with their Higher Self or their concept of G-d, they will only manifest the wishes which are in alignment with their highest and best interest.

Praying for other people

What happens when we pray for someone else? For example, we often pray for someone else's health and healing.

When we pray, we send energy to another person. The energy can give them the boost they need to re-align themself with their greatest good. They may have been ready to give up, but the extra energy from outside sources can give them the strength to decide to heal.

However, this energetic charge only works if the person is willing to accept the energy of other people's prayers. "Accepting" means that their total being accepts the energy. It's not just a mind/brain decision. Everyone has individual choice and can decide whether or not to accept the healing energy. Then, their choice to heal must be in alignment with their life plan.

Similarly, we can pray for someone else to find a job, or to find love. If they accept the energy, our prayers can give them an energetic boost, but the person always has a choice about the job or the relationship.

Can entities on the other side help us?

Just like prayer works on the physical level, it also works from the other side. A deceased relative, an angel, or a Spirit Guide can help someone on the physical plane. Their prayer energy can add to the person's energy, and help the person manifest their goal more easily (if the person is willing to accept the energy).

This is a very complex subject. I've summarized it as best I can. Think about a particular situation in your life and see how these ideas might apply. Then, let me know if this makes sense to you.


P.S. The Mystic Messengers Psychic Fair will be held this Sunday, May 3, 2015, from 9 a.m. until 4 p.m. at the DoubleTree Inn in Tucson, Arizona. I'll be there with books and chakra-balancing jewelry. I hope to see you there.

10:54 am mst

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

In the Blink of an Eye

I interviewed Delphina Nova in 2010 and she shared her thoughts on the upcoming tumultuous years. After the Nepali earthquake, I thought I would share what she said at the time.

Quote from a Psychic - In the Blink of an Eye

"I believe we are on the brink, we are at the 11th hour on our planet. Indigenous cultures around the world, as well as western scientists, are telling us that we are at the 11th hour and I think we are being brought to this place where we actually want something to happen. Our actions are creating things. We are going to be given a huge gift. I am not focused on the December 21, 2012 Mayan prophecies because not all indigenous prophecies point to 2012.

"We are at this point where we have a choice about how we are going to conduct our lives, how we are going to treat each other, and how we are going to take care of the environment. I believe that in the blink of an eye we will choose love. It is up to us. How we treat ourselves and the world around us, is what we are going to receive. The person in one house may be living in hell, and the person next door may be living in love. I believe we can live in a pile of dung somewhere and still live in complete bliss. You can see the person in front of you as your enemy, as separate from you, or as your friend.

"Many Earth changes are happening right now. It's like birth. The baby doesn't come out in one push. This is like a birth process. We make progress, then we go back, then we make progress again . . . and it hurts! Finally, the waters break and the baby is born. Now, ask yourself which waters are breaking right now around the planet? We just had an earthquake in Haiti and an oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico. A lot of things are happening which are like birth pangs. We ask, "Why are these things happening? Why does G-d allow this?" It's all part of the birthing process and birth is messy. Even the waters in the Gulf have turned red like blood! Oil is the blood of Mother Earth. We have to trust in the birth process. Part of that process is letting go of the things we no longer need. We don't need the amniotic sac after the baby is born."

Later in our interview, Delphina added: 

"I can't control what is going to happen in the future, all I can do is take care of my own inner environment. If I am in a space of love, no matter what is happening around me, I am not going to be affected. If there is chaos, or a nuclear attack on Tucson, it won't affect me if I am in the right spiritual space. Am I going to wait until that happens, or am I going to be here in a place of love; nourishing my relationships with G-d and my family? Whatever happens, happens. On my way out, I want to make sure I am in the place of being vulnerable which allows G-d in.

"Scriptures also talk about a golden age. Things are going to be shaken up. This shaking needs to happen, so that we can go into a time of peace which will last a long time. We are going through this shaky period as Earth births itself because we are part of Earth, part of Mother Earth. We, too, need to go through the changes and release the things which no longer work in our own lives: relationships, music, food, etc. We are in the end times right now. I don't look at 2012 as a date; we are already in the end times. This is it for me. I have felt this for 20 years. We are in it right now. Timing can be totally off. Anything can happen at any time right now . . . in the blink of an eye."

A while later, she added:

"I am not waiting for 2012. There is no such thing as time, there is just human time. I am encouraging people not just to look at the date of December 21, 2012, but to think about what they are doing right now. That date is like a portal, but everything is coming down right now and the rate of change will increase until we go through that doorway. When we go through the doorway, we are going to drop all that no longer serves us on the planet. As that happens, the more we cling on to our stocks, our relationships, our cities . . .  we don't know how things are going to be. We just have to let go and know that the changes which are happening are happening for the highest and utter love. I really feel that something wonderful is coming, but we need to let go of things. Sometimes when you need to let go of something, you want to hold on that much more tightly."


Delphina is a Native American Dreamer, a Spiritual Counselor, a Geo-Empath, and an Author. I recently uploaded our full interview as a Kindle e-book. If you are interested in reading more of Delphina's story, you can find the interview by clicking this link. Remember, you don't need a Kindle e-reader to view the interview. You can download the free software and read the interview on your PC, phone, or tablet.

9:16 am mst

Thursday, April 23, 2015

A Resource for Authors

Writing it Right

1) What is the difference between a ghost and a spirit?

2) What are the two major ways in which psychics do readings?

3) Do we retain our personalities after we die and cross to the other side?

4) What are psychics capable of doing?

5) Can your deceased aunt be your Guardian Angel?

I have completed a lot of research with real people with psychic abilities. This work is not fiction (although it often reads like sci-fi fantasy).

Information on this website, in the book, and in the "Psychics Speak" interviews, can be a huge resource for authors who need to know what psychics actually do, how they think, and how they talk about the universe.

One goal of this work is to lay a framework for psychic ability; to get an idea of the realities and the possibilities. Another goal is to define terminology so we understand what people are talking about. Many terms are defined on the "Glossary" page of this website.

If you are an author with a specific question about what psychics do, or how they believe the universe works, feel free to ask me. I'll see if anyone has an answer for you.

Now, to answer the questions:

1) A "ghost" is the energy of a deceased person who has not yet crossed to other side. A "spirit" is the soul of a person who has crossed into the Light. (Because nothing is ever that straightforward, I will mention that some people believe that ghosts are more like energy imprints.)

2) There are two major ways in which psychics provide readings:

a) They connect directly into the client's energy, often by holding hands or by doing body work. All questions can be answered by accessing the client's energy.

b) They work with their Spirit Guides and angels to communicate with the client's Spirit Guides and angels. There is no direct energy-to-energy connection. This method protects the psychic from anything harmful in the client's energy field.

3) Yes, we retain our personalities on the other side. We have an expanded view of issues, see how all of our lifetimes have worked together, and realize how we have affected other people. However, we are not enlightened beings until we have completed all of our physical lifetimes.

4) Most psychics have an area of expertise. For example, they may be a Medium or an Animal Communicator. However, in an emergency, they can often do things they had not known they were capable of doing. They may need to provide an emergency healing, or have a prophetic moment. Some things happen on a "need to know" basis.

5) Every person is born with a Guardian Angel who is with them before birth, through life, through death, and into the afterlife. If a friend or relative dies, that soul may join the person's Spirit Guide group. The deceased will not be a Guardian Angel (that slot is already full), but will still be able to provide support and guidance. Most Spirit Guides have lived in the physical world. Most angels have not had physical lives (although they can show up in physical form in an emergency).

Other questions?

Send them to me at

Have a lovely day.


10:53 am mst

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Quote - Time is flying by

Quote from a Channeled Message

"It seems that time is flying by. It seems to go so fast. You all have some understanding that time is an illusion. And yet, you live in a world where things are marked by time. Know that because of the energies coming into the world, time will seem to speed up. Of course, time seems much faster for those who have been on the earth plane for a while, than for the children who have just come in. For them, a year seems like a long time, but you know that the years fly by.

"My message is simple: Enjoy the time you have and know that because of the energy which is coming in, and each of you are drawing in, that each of you are becoming more and more aware that time seems to go very fast. However, this is a blessing for you as your desires will come to you faster and faster and faster. The more you release your doubts and worries, the faster things will come. The more you have fun, and the more you play, and the more you enjoy your life, the harder it is for you to keep your doubts and worries. So live and love and enjoy the time that you have."

10:20 am mst

Thursday, April 16, 2015

Heavenly Music

Heavenly Music

An Intuitive woman told me about her near near-death experience (NDE). This is her paraphrased story:

"It was the middle of the night and I felt like I was having a heart attack. It scared me. I couldn't even move. My back hurt. I thought I'd better get up and get some water; do something. I got out of bed, walked around, sipped some water, then went back to bed. As soon as I started to fall asleep, I heard this beautiful music playing, music like I had never heard before. I wondered, "What could it be? An ice cream truck?" It was the middle of the night. I didn't think I'd left the radio or the CD player on. I got out of bed again. I checked the doors, opening them to see if anyone was playing music. Nothing was there.

"I went back to bed and the harmonious music started playing again. Finally, I fell asleep.

"Sunday morning, I was still feeling odd from the day before. I went to church, then headed for the grocery store.

"On the way, I called a friend and asked how he was doing. He was sitting at his computer, reading that our mutual friend had just passed away. She had been found dead at 10 p.m. on the night I had heard the music. She was a really good friend of mine and she had suffered a heart attack.

"I had never heard that music before. It was almost like a peaceful type of beautiful music. You just want to relax. I had no idea."

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Years ago, I talked to Delphina Nova about the role which music played in her life. She told me:

"From the age of five until I was a teenager, I played music 4 or 5 hours a day. I played the accordion. I was in festivals and competitions. This was a huge part of my life. Back then, it was my direct link to the Divine. At this time in my life, I am just realizing that there was a huge connection. As a child, playing classical music for 4 or 5 hours a day was a meditative practice. I wasn't meditating, or praying, but the music linked me to the music of the spirits. Music was my first love. Through music, I was connected to planets and stars, to souls. I knew I wasn't just a body when I was playing music. This is just starting to reveal itself. Music is going on constantly in the Universe. Music was a way for me to soothe my soul during dark times.

"Now, I play the Native American flute. I play it for myself, for my own connection. Occasionally, I play the flute at ceremonies, such as births, transitions, and name-givings. Music is a huge part of my life."

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I, too, have heard mystical, classical music when none was there.

Have you heard celestial harmonies, turned, and discovered that there was no obvious source for the music? If so, I would love to hear your story. You can contact me at


9:50 am mst

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

A Personal Way to Communicate

Conversing with Psychics

A few months ago, I asked an Intuitive how she received messages, and if we could all receive messages. She told me:

"There are people, entities, on all levels willing to talk to you. Some people on the other side are experts in their field. All sorts of information is over there. Spirit Guides are closer to our energy than angels. Sometimes people can accept angels because they are part of traditional religion. Other people think that angels are too far from anything they know, yet there is this range of beings who you can tap into.

"If you allow it, you can get information. How it will happen for you, will be different than how it happens for anyone else.

"When you trust that how you get it is real, it will come in faster and better.

"If you talk to someone who pushes Guides and Teachers, and says that is the only way to communicate, you are never going to see how you do it because you are always going to go to Guides and Teachers. They are there and they will talk to you, but you have to discover your personal way of receiving information.

"I'm an Intuitive. I feel. I'm clairscentient. I hear, but not with a voice. I say 'I hear it' because it is almost like an echo, like someone shouted into the room, then I can hear it. It's not coming into my ear. Sometimes, they write a banner. I'm visual. If they know my ears aren't going to get it, they write a banner. That's if I'm conscious of the communication.

"The unconscious part comes when Spirit just takes over and says words. Messages bypass my conscious brain and come out of my mouth. I will be talking to you and I will hit the exact words you need to hear. My mouth will say the words, but if you ask me to repeat them, I won't be able to do it. I can't get it back because I didn't originate it.

"Now, I understand that is how I communicate. I'm comfortable with it.

"Everyone can discover their own way of communicating with Spirit."

11:40 am mst

Thursday, April 9, 2015

Harmony Grove's Rebirth and Renewal

Rebirth and Renewal

Harmony Grove's story is everyone's story. Out of destruction comes renewal.

Harmony Grove is a spiritualist community west of Escondido, California. I visited Harmony Grove several years ago and found a lovely, calm spot. In May 2014, wildfires swept through, and destroyed, much of Harmony Grove. The church burned down, along with homes and the bookstore. I wrote a blog post about the fire in May 2014.

In February 2015, nine months after the fire, I visited Harmony Grove again. I wanted to see what remained on the site. It was serendipitous that I arrived, unannounced, on a day that the gate was open for trash pickup. Turns out, Harmony Grove has been closed to the public most of the time since the fire. However, they still have Psychic Fairs and classes so it is open for those events. I just happened to show up on a day when the gates were open, the woman I had talked with several years ago was in her car in the parking lot (just about to leave), and the current President was working onsite. I was allowed to enter the property and to relax in the Meditation Garden.

After sitting in the calm, I stopped in to see one of the women who was onsite working to rebuild Harmony Grove. Her name is Reverend Coy Johnston and she is the current President of the Harmony Grove Spiritualist Association. We had never before met, yet she was gracious enough to chat with me and tell me about Harmony Grove's rebirth and renewal.

I asked about the fire and she told me that there had been an evacuation order the night before the blaze had swept through Harmony Grove. All of the people and pets had safely evacuated, so no one had been hurt. At the time, Coy had thought that the people were being asked to leave, like they had many times before, but she had been certain that the evacuees would return to their homes a few days later. She had not thought that the fire would burn Harmony Grove. That is not what happened. Many of the homes had been destroyed, all of the people had to move elsewhere, and the community had to ride out a period of debris removal. People had to grieve their losses, reconcile the fact that they had lost their homes and possessions, move on, come to an emotional place where they could accept what had happened, and begin to see that the fire had provided an opportunity for Harmony Grove's renewal.

So, what was my first logical, annoying, question to Coy? "As a bunch of psychics, didn't people know that Harmony Grove was going to burn?" Yes and no. Coy told me that several psychics had known that the area would burn. They had warned others, then left with their belongings. However, other people were in denial. They just couldn't believe that Spirit would allow the area to burn. There had been many wildfires, and Harmony Grove had always been spared.

Now, let's go back to a few months prior to the fire. Coy told me that new energies had been coming into Harmony Grove since 2011. The onsite spiritualists had felt these new energies. Vortexes had opened on the property.

In Coy's opinion, Spirit had seen the fires approaching Harmony Grove and had taken the opportunity to allow some of the old wooden buildings to burn so that new buildings could be built within the new energies. Enough of the property had been spared that activities could continue, but the old buildings could now be replaced by new buildings.

Similarly, all the people who had lived at Harmony Grove had to move out. This provided an opportunity for people to choose anew where they wanted to live. If they were dedicated to Harmony Grove, they were welcome to return and build new homes. If they were on the fence, not certain that they still wanted to live at Harmony Grove, they could make the choice to live elsewhere. When rebuilt, the Grove will be home to completely re-committed spiritualists, brand-new buildings, and the new energies which now inspire the property. This is an opportunity to renew everything, not just the homes, but the whole community's character.

Right now, many classes are being held at Harmony Grove. The monthly Psychic Fair is open to the public, Mediums and healers are being trained and certified, the Summer Institute is being planned, and ministers are being ordained. Much is happening. You can check out the Harmony Grove website for information on these activities. In addition, the website has photos of the fire damage, and information on how you can contribute to rebuilding the site.

The important message is that we all go through periods of despair and renewal. We can survive life's challenges and realize that they often lead to re-dedication and happiness. Life changes. Fires burn. We adapt, and we may flourish afterwards. The energies are changing for all of us. In these new energies, we are encouraged to make new choices, or to reaffirm the life choices we have already made. The new energies allow us to feel better, lighter, brighter, and clearer.

The Skull Speaks

For those of you who are waiting for a story which is a little bit "out there," here we go.

Many crystals were onsite when the fire roared through. In the most-intense areas of heat, crystals had disintegrated. One of the surviving pieces was a small crystal skull. After the fire, the skull was picked up by someone with which it could communicate; someone who was sensitive enough to "hear" the skull. The skull wanted to go everywhere with this woman. It had been freaked out by the fire. The skull raged on, telling stories about what it was like to live through an inferno. The skull's energy was jittery, like a child who had survived a trauma. Finally, after telling his story over and over, and showing this woman what it was like to live through a fire, the skull calmed down. The skull became the spokesman for all the things which had survived the fire. Then, the crystal skull became an energy point, anchoring new energy at Harmony Grove.

Thank you, Coy, for taking the time to chat with me and for your willingness to help me understand the bigger picture.


11:11 am mst

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Denise Singerline Foster's Energy Work

Quote from a Psychic - Denise Singerline Foster's Energy Work

Denise Singerline Foster is a teacher, a Reiki Master, and a chakra-balancing specialist. Today's "Quote" is an excerpt from our interview. In our conversation, Denise discusses some of the ways she can help people heal. My questions are in Italics and her answers are in the regular font.

Can you tell me about your energy work?
When I start doing healing work, I ask Spirit to help me step aside so they can work through me and attach themselves to the backs of my hands. I ask them to show me what needs to be done; to guide me and lead me. I step out of the way and I start channeling energy through my body.

All of the sudden I will see a little movie inside my head. For example, I will see a cruise ship and I will figure out that the client is going on a cruise. Or a book will pop up and I will suggest that the client read the book. Or I'll see a symbol like the Star of David and know that the client is Jewish. If I don't understand the symbol, I'll ask what they are trying to tell me and I will hear additional information. Sometimes I hear that there is an issue with one of the client's organs so I'll clean it out. I also know what supplements they need.

If you see a cruise ship, do you have any way of knowing if they took a cruise in the past, or if they are going to take a cruise in the future?
I can ask. I'll ask when they are going, and I'll hear, "In the spring."

So, you actually hear a voice?
Yes. I can see images, hear a voice, and channel energy.

Who do you think you are connecting with?
I often work with Jesus. I call upon Christ, Guides, angels, Buddha, Kwan Yin, the Ascended Masters and the White Brotherhood of Light ["White" refers to the color of the aura, not to race]. I work with whomever of the Christ Consciousness wants to help me.

Do you know who comes?
Yes, Jesus most of the time. I was raised Catholic so I am very comfortable with Jesus. I also communicate with Mary, Kwan Yin, and Buddha. I am very connected to the oriental energy. I also work with Archangels Michael and Rafael.

Do you know where they are located?
I say it is from the Divine. To me, it is like another dimension. It's not a planet or a galaxy; it's another dimension which exists alongside of ours.

Do you think G-d is involved; if so, how?
It's all Divine. I don't think G-d is one single entity, I think it is more like a consciousness. It's an energy. I am tapping into that Universal Divine Energy.

Do you need to protect yourself when you do this work?
Oh yes. I ask Archangel Michael and his Angels of Protection to completely surround me with their wings and keep me safely protected. I ask for gold saucers on my hands. I ask that I be protected from any energy which is not mine, not of the Light, or a disease. After I do my healing work, I dump all of the energy and I fill myself with Light.

Can you tell me about the gold saucers on your hands?
I ask for gold saucers on the backs of my hands and I ask that all of the Angels of Healing place their hands on top of mine so that they can guide and lead me. They work through me.

Those are lovely images.

I also have a beautiful crystal wand with gemstones in it. I had looked for a wand for two years. Then, one year I was at the gem show and I saw an Indian woman all the way across the room, in the corner. Our eyes connected. I walked over to her table and it was filled with gorgeous wands. I picked up a couple of wands, but the minute I picked up this one, my hand started vibrating and I knew I had to get it. I knew it was the one for me.

What do you use the wand for?
I use it in my healing work. I hold it in my left hand because the left hand receives energy. I use it to cut things out of the client's aura. I do psychic surgery and it is my psychic scalpel. It amplifies the energy. Energy comes in through the left and the crystal amplifies the energy.

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I found so many new ideas in this part of our conversation that I wanted to share all of them with you. If you also found this interesting, you might enjoy reading the entire interview. The interview is now available as a Kindle e-book. It is the 18th entry in the Psychics Speak series. You can click here to find the book. Remember, you don't need a Kindle e-reader to view the material. You can download free software and read Kindle e-books on your computer, your phone or your tablet.

If you want to know more about Denise and her work, check her website at

Let me know what you think.


12:14 pm mst

Thursday, April 2, 2015

John Hunter's NDE - Part II

 John Hunter's Near-Death Experience, Part II

Last Thursday, I shared the amazing story of John's near-death experience (NDE). Today, I am posting his reflection on that experience, nearly 20 years later. John was only 21 when he crossed to other side, found himself in a waiting room, felt total love, received a download of information, and was sent back to his body. His story continues:

After that event, I felt different. My experience on the other side had changed my perspective on things. I noticed a difference in how I felt when my family members visited me in the hospital. They told me that they loved me and that they were there for me. I could feel their emotions, really feel what they were thinking. I was connected to them on many levels. I understood that things were different.

I was in the hospital for three days, and racked up about $150,000 bill. I had no money. I was a poor college student. That reality, and what had happened, stressed me.

I was released from the hospital on Halloween and visited my friend who had kids. We took them trick-or-treating, although I could barely walk. I was sore. I was 21. I wasn't thinking realistically. "Sure I can go walking." I'm still invincible. I was in shock for six months.

I had to have blood thinners for a year to make sure there weren't any other clots or blocks. Eventually, they figured out that this had been a freak thing. There was no other damage. No future risk. I had suffered a sports injury five years before the heart attack. My shoulder had blown out. Scar tissue was scattered throughout my body. A piece of tissue had moved into my aorta and blood had clotted around it. It was a freak thing. Nothing I had to worry about again.

I didn't think about the download for many years. I just started wondering about it a few months ago. I kept telling myself that it was nothing I needed to know. For twenty years, I didn't ask what it was. I had a sense that it would be made clear when it was time.

About two months ago, I asked myself about the download. What am I supposed to know? I do healing work. I physically release the tension in people's bodies. That's all I've allowed myself to tell others I could do. Recently, I have felt that it was time to find out what I am supposed to do, how I am supposed to help, what my true path is. So I asked myself, "What was that information?"

I couldn't understand the download when it occurred because I hadn't learned enough about the process of downloading. Since then, I have learned that we all have 12 strands of DNA, but not all 12 strands are active. You can think of your 12 stands of DNA as your energy chakra system. You can work with your first chakra and the emotions and the issues that deal with your first chakra. Or, you can work with the second chakra. Think of those as your DNA strands. There are 12 chakras, there are 12 DNA strands. Most of us do not use all 12 strands.

DNA is a code. What was downloaded was the additional code which allowed me to activate all 12 strands of my DNA. It gets down to using more of who we are and how we are created; more of an aspect, or an understanding, of our self. This download was called a "key." The codes are the key to opening the door to our Higher Self.

Until now, I have only acknowledged certain aspects of the enlightenment process. Maybe I was afraid of looking into other people, and their energy, and reading that? Maybe I was afraid of affecting other people's lives? Maybe I was not confident enough in my life to be able to tell someone else about theirs? I couldn't use my full abilities to help someone, or to heal them.

To break down the barrier I had built around "the event of the download," I had to be hypnotized. I went to a hypnotist and said I wanted a past-life regression. I wanted to find out who I had been, to allow me to be who I am today. I wanted to see it like a movie, watch it play out, and learn from it. That didn't happen. When I went under hypnosis, I found that I was blocking myself from seeing or feeling that knowledge. The hypnotist had me go to the blockage (what I was afraid of, what I was allowing to be the excuse for keeping me from this all-knowing information), and take it away. I went through a process of disengaging the limitation that I had created for myself.

I went back and forth. My excited side which wanted to help and learn had to talk to the side which was afraid and wanted control. There was an internal argument about maintaining control of my life. When the argument settled, I was able to remove the blockage. From that moment, there was no more fight, no more holding back. I honestly felt the block go away. I felt it release physically, mentally, and energetically. Since then, I have been able to cut loose and not hold back. I am so much happier.

Now, I don't allow myself to limit any aspect of my ability to feel, read, perceive, or process energy of any type. I am sensitive to that energy, and I can use it to help and guide others. I can also guide my own life.

It's almost 20 years since I had the heart attack. I am finally allowing myself to benefit from that experience, understand that experience, and live my life fully-enacted through that experience.

In massage therapy sessions, I don't fight or hold back. I am as natural as I can be in communicating with someone else. It is so great, so rewarding, so freeing. I just love it. I love to help others take blocks out of their lives so they can feel the true love and excitement of life. This is rewarding work.

I have been told that this is my the second chance to get things done. That was an overwhelming feeling. At 21, I had wanted a wife and kids. I have them now. I need to put my work back on track. I need to refocus. I need to start seeing, feeling, and asking myself questions about my growth and development.

Right now, I help people release physical tension. They also need emotional and mental releases. It's great to remove the blocks which limit people. My goal is to help others understand themselves. I want to help people reconnect to who they are. It embodies empowerment in an unlimited way.

I'm excited. I've been excited for 20 years. Everything is coming together.

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Thank you, John, for your openness and your willingness to share your experience with the rest of us.

For more information on John and his work, view his website at


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