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Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Do we have contracts for each lifetime? What is our Life Purpose?

According to the psychics, we are each on a journey of birth, life experience, death, integrating, and birth again. When we are on the other side, we plan our upcoming lifetime. Several of the psychics remember negotiating contracts for this lifetime. Denise Singerline explained:

"Before we come to Earth we meet with a Council to decide what we want to learn in each lifetime. We form a contract and then we come down here. We have free will, but all of the major things in the contract are already in place. For example, the contract may state when a person is going to marry or when they are going to die but, in between, the person has free will. We come down here and when we pass, we leave our ‘vehicle' behind and our spiritual body is released. Our spirit leaves and goes back to the Divine.

"After we pass, we meet with a Council which shows us all of the things which we have done with our life, the good and the bad, and asks what we have learned. Then we have a choice as to when we want to come down again to learn more."

Jan Class added:

"When you come down, you have pretty much planned your life out. When we pass on, we are very busy on the other side planning our next life. That takes a lot of work. People stick to their outline pretty closely because they have a contract with G-d. They may get off the road for a while, but they get back on the road. They may get busy sightseeing, but they get back on the road. There's leeway, but people get back to what they agreed to accomplish."

The contracts state several experiences which we agree to live through. However, we are free to choose all of the other aspects of our lives. For example, we may have a contract to experience marriage and raising a family, but we can choose whom we want to marry.

In her book, "The Lightworker's Way" (Hay House, 1997), Doreen Virtue provided a lovely passage about life purpose which had come to her in a meditation. She wrote:

"Before your birth, you and a spiritual council of guides created a life plan tailored to meet your material, spiritual, and karmic needs. This Divine plan has three elements: a purpose, personal growth lessons, and relationships with other people to support the overall plan.

"Your purpose is a task you are to do through your career, volunteer work, or a special project that uses your natural talents and interests to benefit humanity. You plan's second element entails well-timed life events that teach you about love and help you to shed self-defeating personality traits. The third element involves pre-birth arrangements you made with certain people who will serve as catalysts for your purpose and personal growth. These people may function as your family members, co-workers, friends, or acquaintances. Your interactions with these people simultaneously help them to fulfill their own plan.

"You predestined your plan as a rough outline of what your life would look like, including your purpose, significant life lessons, and relationships with particular people. Because the plan is only a rough outline, you must choose the finer details of your plan as you go through life. You are free to ignore the plan completely, but the emotional and societal consequences of this choice can be devastating."

Later she added:

"In our previous incarnations, many of us didn't fulfill our purposes. During our post-death life reviews, we felt ashamed that fears and material desires thwarted our plan. This lifetime, we swear to ourselves before birth, we won't forget our purpose. The trouble is, we design the Divine plan in a "true self" state of peaceful mindfulness. When we experience ego-based fear during our human lifetime, we can't remember why we came here. If we do remember, fears keep us from ever starting our plan."

According to Ms. Virtue, people who procrastinate or forget their plans, feel a deep, low-level anxiety. They unconsciously know that another painful life review awaits them if they let themselves down again. They feel depressed, as if they're forgetting to do something important. They are forgetting to fulfill their contract.

Do souls come back to Earth even after they have learned their lessons? Who are the "volunteers"?

Some souls have completed their lessons on Earth and are ready to relax on the other side or move on to other realms, but they are asked to return to Earth. They don't have to come back for their own growth, but they volunteer to return and help other people evolve to the frequency where they won't have to come back anymore.

These volunteers are also called upon to help humanity move through times of trouble. Several of the psychics told me that they were here for World War II either because the traumatic events allowed them to move quickly through their lessons or because they were asked to help humanity move forward through that difficult period.

Many souls have been asked to return during this lifetime so that they can help with the upcoming "ascension." This is a particularly precious time on Earth as people strive to leave war and destruction behind and awaken to a new reality. One of the psychics calls this the "past-life teacher reunion," suggesting that all of the teachers who have been on Earth in previous reincarnations are here now to help with humanity's ascension.

To'-Ree'-Nee Wolf explained her life contract and her experience of volunteering:

"I came back to be of service. I remember the conversation I had before I was born: I came back to be of service. I was not an altruistic soul. My last life was during the Holocaust and I did not survive the war. During the conversation before I was born, I stated that I did not want to do this job. At the table where everything was made of light, the Beings said, ‘We need you to come back.' I refused to come back. I had a huge chunk of rest due and I said, ‘Get someone else.' They replied, ‘We need everybody.'

"I have what's known as a ‘coming back' clause. I have a series of things which will not happen to me in this lifetime. It is a list of agreements which were made before I agreed to come back and be of service.

"I have updated the contract a few times during this lifetime. I was on a plane one time and we hit big turbulence. I knew that as a part of my contract the plane was not going to go down. I was able to re-assure the other passengers that everything would be fine."

This Project has been eye-opening for me. To talk with people with this kind of direct experience is "crazy good." I'm guessing that my personal "purpose" is sharing My Psychic Search. Are you aware of your purpose?


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Tuesday, June 21, 2011

How did people figure out that they were psychic?

Of the 26 people I interviewed, four were born knowing they were psychic, eighteen knew they were different from other children, but had to figure out that they were psychic, and four were "normal" children who developed their gift later in life.

The four people who came to Earth knowing that they were psychic either remembered their past lives and how the Universe worked, or remembered making an agreement (before being born) to come to Earth and help people. They had experiences in childhood which reinforced their "knowing." One psychic told me that when her class learned about World War II in second grade, she remembered the whole thing and couldn't get out of bed for a week.

Two psychics who were born knowing about their roles said:

☼ I was born remembering past lives . . . People often forget things which happened before they were born, but my mother helped me to remember these things. There is a lineage of psychics in my family . . . The most powerful ability I had as a child was empathy and it wasn't until I was in fifth grade that I discovered that other people didn't have that. It blew my mind; it really traumatized me to find out that other people didn't feel the same way that I did. (Erik Von Assman)

☼ I was psychic from childhood. I knew what other people felt and thought and what was going on with them. My Mom said that I was only about a year old when I began showing empathy. I was very precocious as a child and I think it is because I remember a lot of my past lives . . . I came in knowing what I had. (Leah Taylor)

Eighteen psychics knew they were different from other children, but had to discover that they had psychic abilities. What made them different from other children? They saw fairies, astral traveled, talked with spirits, or knew things about other people which they had no logical way of knowing. At eight years old, one psychic told his mom that a neighbor was pregnant before there were any indications that this was the case. Also at eight years old, another psychic started seeing people's auras. At five years of age, a third psychic had an out-of-body experience. When these children talked about their experiences, they found that other people didn't see the things which they saw. These eighteen children knew that there was something different about them, but it took a while to put the pieces together.

How did they figure things out? Of the eighteen people who knew they were different, but had to find out what was happening:

5 people talked to a spiritual teacher who explained their situation;
4 people began researching, studying and exploring metaphysics on their own and discovered that they had gifts;
1 person had Spirit Guides who explained what was going on;
5 people either had a near-death experience, a medical issue or an emotional trauma which opened their abilities; and
3 people had abilities which unfolded naturally as they matured.

Here are several examples from people who knew they were different as children and later discovered that they were psychic.

People who talked to a psychic and discovered that they were gifted

☼ I knew I had an ability, but I didn't know what it was called until I was 18 and met someone who explained it to me. When I was younger, my family lived in France and I had déja vu all the time. I always knew exactly where I was; there were no surprises. It was a very strange feeling. I didn't know that I was different from other people until they looked at me like I had two heads and I thought maybe they didn't know what I knew.

When I was 18, I moved to Nebraska and met a palm reader. She looked at my hand and said, "You should be reading mine!" Then she looked in my eyes and said, "I've been waiting a long time to meet you." She had been told that I was coming to her. She explained to me what I am and she taught me everything she knew about hands. Then, I taught her what I knew. The hands would open up and tell stories. She became a mentor for me. I talked to her quite a bit and we became very good friends. (Cecilia Nemmers)

☼ I was born this way and I thought everyone was like me. As I grew older, I realized that other people were not like me and that some people were afraid of me when I told them things. I started keeping things to myself. As a child, I didn't have anyone to tell me what was going on.

I was born with sight and I always knew what people were thinking and feeling. I could walk into a room and feel the energy. As a child, I had spirits come to me every night and stand at the edge of my bed. I would wake up in the middle of the night in the process of astral traveling, but I didn't know what it was. I felt like I was sinking down into the bed as my spirit was lifting. As I woke up in the middle of it, I would see a spirit standing in the doorway beckoning me to follow.

I met my first spiritual teacher when I was 17. I went to a psychic fair and the minute I sat down in front of one of the psychics she said, "You have very strong psychic powers and you are afraid of them. I could teach you how to use them to heal others and to help them in their lives." I started crying as I realized that I was not alone. I had never met anyone else like me. I had always felt so alone and it had been scarey. I had needed to keep things hidden. I started taking her meditation classes. (Denise Singerline)

People who researched, studied, and discovered they were psychic

☼ I have used psychic abilities most of my life, but I didn't know what they were. I probably didn't realize what it was until high school. That's when I started dabbling in it to see, but it wasn't until later that I realized that this wasn't normal.

After my first husband passed away, I wanted to know why, and no one could give me the answer. I went to someone who did an astrological reading and I started taking lessons. Then I started learning about numerology and it was like a glove; it just fit. I spent my first couple of years dealing with astrology, then I fell in love with numerology, so I do several things. As far as mentoring the "abilities," I never really thought of them as abilities, I just thought of them as "one of those things." (Patricia Kirkman)

People who experienced a trauma which opened their gifts

☼ When I was about 20 years old, I slipped into an unconscious state. Five and a half weeks later, I woke up. I was pronounced dead three times and I came back three times. There was no medical reason, no accident, which caused this event. When I woke up, I was fine. I just felt like I had lost time.

Several years later, I started to become spiritually aware. My interests, curiosity and knowledge started to come on-line. At that point, I started on the path of spiritual exploration.

I was introduced to a woman who was on the cutting edge in the spiritual world. She was a channel of Metatron [an angel]. I went to see her, not really knowing what a channel was, and she said, "I have been expecting you. Where have you been? You are behind schedule." I was surprised and I had no idea what she was talking about. She did a reading for me and introduced me to new concepts, such as "light body" and "ascension." I was reeling after that discussion as all of the information tried to settle in.

Three or four months later, I followed Spirit and went to northern CA for a three-day intensive workshop on etheric surgery with a woman named Tachi-Ren. Someone told me about it and I just went. That weekend, she activated me, bringing in my knowledge and wisdom about my work. I started to remember things. It was a "remembering" from the part of me which was not in physical form. I remembered my Higher Consciousness, what I came here to do, and what my work was all about. That is where it all began. (Raquel Spencer)

☼ The State of Arizona removed my daughter from my care and sent her to live with my parents. This created great trauma in my life and the trauma brought forward my abilities as a Medium. I started hearing things I had never heard before from people who had crossed over. I started smelling aromas and hearing things. It was an overload. I had to learn how to control it and work with it. (Marianne Patyk)

People who had abilities which unfolded as they matured

☼ Now that I know, I can look back and see that I had abilities as long as I can remember. I didn't think of it that way at the time. As a child, I spent a lot of time alone. I knew things. I thought that everybody felt like this.

When I was around 10 years old, I heard my mother calling me in her unique accent. I asked her what she wanted and she told me that she had not been calling me. Turns out it was my Grandmother Virginia calling my name. She had lived in our house and had recently passed. At the time, I didn't quite figure it out.

When I was in college, I was sitting in a stairwell and I was very upset about things. I received a huge, overwhelming message that I was holding back because I didn't want to be a big psychic in the limelight. I had insecurities. It was like: what if I really was the person I was here to be? It was too much for me to grasp; I was hiding from it. I get goose bumps even saying it. I remember sitting in that stairwell, crying, and thinking, "I have all of this stuff to do for the planet!" I wasn't ready to do it. (Gigi Sample)

The remaining four people had normal childhoods They didn't know they were gifted as children. They developed their abilities as teens or adults. One of these people had a near-death experience  which opened her abilities and, afterwards, she began studying spirituality. The other three explored spirituality on their own. They played with Ouija boards or Tarot cards, or took classes, and were able to develop their skills.

One person who had a normal childhood and whose gifts opened later in life said:

☼ I figured it out on my own. The more I learned about anything metaphysical, the more I understood the possibilities. In 1970, I started a study group in Wisconsin to understand metaphysics and I had a very powerful experience during an automatic writing session. We were all sitting in my studio and the teacher explained what automatic writing was. I had just returned from a trip to Sedona and had found out that the mother of a good friend of mine had passed away while I was gone. The woman who had passed away was named Hannah. In the past, every time I had had lunch with Hannah she had said, "Thank you for being my friend." In addition, whenever she talked about her son she would say, "Oh, Ron will be Ron." Back to the automatic writing session. We did a guided meditation and we each had a pen and paper. The teacher said that if nothing was happening, just to write our names. I started to write my name and my arm started shaking. I opened my eyes in disbelief and I wrote, "Sad." I wasn't crying, but suddenly tears were running out of my eyes. Then I wrote, "Thank you for being my friend," and I realized it was Hannah. My hand moved down the paper and my hand wrote, "Ron will be . . . " I put the pen down and I was completely freaked out. It was the first time, I had had that kind of a mind-boggling experience. That was when I realized that there was a lot out there which I didn't understand and it increased my interest in finding out more.

How about you? How did you figure out that you were psychic? Let me know your story at


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Wednesday, June 15, 2011

by Gary C. Kossman

You are Sunshine and Stardust . . .
Pieces of the original creation
in a new Divine form.
You are more magnificent,
More amazing, more wonderful,
Than you could ever imagine . . .
Ponder that for a moment and then have the
Most Magical, Miraculous, Marvelous day!
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Friday, June 10, 2011

Are we ready for 2012?

2012 is coming. No one knows exactly what it will be like or what will happen, but certain people have had glimpses of the future. I have spoken with many spiritual people about the upcoming opportunities for growth which will be presented in 2012.

Last February, at the Writer's Conference in San Diego, I met Matthew Pallamary. He is an author and a teacher who has been on a shamanistic path for many years. Matthew has experimented extensively with Amazonian plants and has had mystical experiences. In the course of our conversation, I asked Matthew what he thought might happen in 2012. His answer was that while he was not certain of the particular events, he knew how to approach the changes.

Matthew feels that this time of change is bringing our lessons to us in faster and faster cycles. We are manifesting the lessons we need to learn. Either we understand the lessons and move forward, or we don't. The key is integrity. We need to be solid in our core values and we also need to be flexible. This allows us to deal with whatever comes our way.

According to Matthew, the Universe always brings people back to balance. People face experiences which either bring them back to integrity or they continue to live in denial. If they live in denial, their lives worsen.

Matthew believes that we all need to be prepared for the future. Interestingly, when he works with Amazonian plants, he can go through an experience on a psychic level before it actually happens. Later, when the event occurs, he has already been through it so he knows how to handle it.

While Matthew doesn't know exactly what the next few years will hold, his strategy for dealing with the future is to live in integrity. He observes that he can't change anything in the world around him as it is occurring, but he has complete control over how he reacts to it. He commented:

"To me, the difference between awareness and lack of awareness is the difference between reacting and acting. If you lack awareness, you react. You follow the same pattern, you do the same things, you have the same trigger points. If you are aware, you no longer react. You act. You learn to be accountable within yourself. This is all Zen, this is the Tao. You learn to be flexible so that no matter what goes on around you, you react in a different way and the more you learn to do that, the different kinds of energies you attract to yourself . . . Outer reality changes because you have changed on the inside. You no longer draw those other energies to yourself. You draw newer and different energies and people to yourself. A higher vibration. A higher level of awareness."

Matthew believes that 2012 will provide a unique opportunity. Planetary alignments are going to shift. The energetics are going to be in a particular position and this is going to provide a great opportunity to make a leap forward in consciousness.

Matthew's thoughts are very consistent with the ideas shared by other people who I have interviewed. In fact, Delphina Nova remarked:

"I am not focused on the December 21, 2012 Mayan prophecies because not all indigenous prophecies point to 2012. We are at this point where we have a choice about how we are going to conduct our lives, how we are going to treat each other, and how we are going to take care of the environment. I believe that in the blink of an eye we will choose love. It is up to us. How we treat ourselves and the world around us is what we are going to receive. The person in one house may be living in hell, and the person next door may be living in love. I believe we can be living in a pile of dung somewhere and still be living in complete bliss. You can see the person in front of you as your enemy, as separate from you, or as your friend."

Later in our discussion she added:

"I can't control what is going to happen in the future, all I can do is take care of my own inner environment. If I am in a space of love, no matter what is happening around me, I am not going to be affected. If there is chaos, or a nuclear attack on Tucson, it won't affect me if I am in the right spiritual space. Am I going to wait until that happens, or am I going to be here in a place of love; nourishing my relationships with G-d and my family? Whatever happens, happens. On my way out, I want to make sure I am in the place of being vulnerable which allows G-d in."

We all need to find the quiet place within ourselves which assists us in facing challenges in a straightforward manner. We need to connect to our own personal knowledge.

Matthew Pallamary has written several books including, "Spirit Matters." If you are interested in Matthew's thoughts or his work, you can check out his website at You can also find more about him and his work through videos on YouTube.

Delphina Nova can be found at

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